Change in Attitude
Hey Matthews Place! For the past few weeks life has been hell, I have gone from super happy to really depressed to wanting to use old habits for my pain and now getting on the right track again. I am super sorry for being so emotionally absent in my blogs. This month is going to be a sort of ‘tell all’/update for everything that is happening. It makes me so entirely happy that my dream is so close to coming true. There are some days where I just say to myself that this will never happen, that I am just one person and I can’t do anything, but in reality, you only need one person to change something and I want that one person to be me!
First – from here on out it is only going to be Laurin and I because of some personal issues that got between Jess and I. I want this to work out for the LGBTQ community because you all come first so the personal issues had to be dealt with. We are still searching for a couple more people to be on the board with us but I am sure it will happen in time. Last month I had told you that I was emailing Laurin to talk about moving the foundation of the organization to Connecticut because, for the moment, it would be a lot easier for me when I am doing the majority of it and everything we have for it is with me. Of course she understands, so it is now going to be started in Connecticut, which means I can start doing it now! I think this is the part of everything that kinda got me out of my slump. I have checked on p.o. boxes and as soon as we get our checks, we are putting together money and getting one. Once that is done I am sending in our paperwork to hold our name and start our non-profit status. I don’t know if you truly understand this but it means that within the next couple of months (hopefully) we will be an official legal non-profit group!! How exciting is that??? ☺ I had seen a website that could help us and if I remember correctly, one of my exes used it to change her name so I was thinking about using that for some of our paperwork. I think it would be a lot easier – what do you all think? Other than that, I am doing loads of research everyday to find some people to help us and get things rolling. I am now trying to find a space for our auction so that we can raise funds and find a place to rent!
Second- On May 5th there was a show on Logo called Legalize Gay and it was amazing! If you can find it I would say definitely watch it. Some of the people that were included were HRC president Joe Solmonese, Marriage Equality advocate Zach Wahls, Athlete Ally founder Hudson Taylor and Rugby star Ben Cohen. It was really eye opening to someone that hasn’t really been up on what has been happening in our community. While I was watching this, I was thinking about how many people Laurin and I can help just within Connecticut and Massachusettes. Like I have said, I have been doing research for different places in Connecticut that are LGBTQ to see if we would be able to start this and from the looks of it, there is nothing here like that! Which is really good! My next step is to email lots of people and start looking for a place to rent for the auction and eventually the organization! If anyone has any advice for me, please tell me because I will listen to everything! I don’t want to mess this up. Throughout my life, I have messed up a lot but this is one thing that I know I need to do right. I hope you all the best and enjoy your start of your summer!!
Keep faith in me!